My Story Pt. III

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I will never, ever forget November 26th 2009.
The day I met her.

By God, she looked like an angel.

She was different.
I saw it in her eyes.
I knew it in my mind.
I felt it in my heart.

Being a reluctant participant in my faculty's event, I did not expect to meet somebody like her. I only went to the event because I got shanghaied into a deal. A promise is a promise, my rule is not to break them.
Little I knew, that when I keep my promise, He kept His.

I prayed to know her better, and God put us in the same group.
I prayed for His "signs" and she came out of her room.
I prayed for His validation, and she approached me, barely knew me at all, and sat beside me, all alone, just the two of us, a moment that made my heart race.

It was like magic and just really too good to be true, that I really couldn't speak properly. When I saw her eyes, words won't come out. When they do came out, it's really unorganized, and I just end up making her confused. So, I just spent time looking at her from a distance.

I was a playboy. At least, many of my friends say that about me. I dated a lot. I went out with girls. I know the words I should say, how I should walk, how I'd woo them.
I was a Christian, but in dating matters, I was holding the pen for my own love story.

It's all lost when I came face to face with her.
He stripped it from me, because I know she was and still is His and His only.

So, after the event, we part ways, I was hoping to keep contact with her. I "used" Him, that if we really did meant together, He would be the one to make it "easy".
With a frail faith like mine, it was just a matter of time before I got tired of waiting.

I should have listened to my heart and stayed faithful.

I got tired of waiting.
I forgot everything about her.
I met someone else.
I started a serious relationship with her instead, and no matter how hard or willing I try to make it work, things did not work out.
In our final days, I felt that it's just not right.



Still coping up with the loss, one night, I read Isaiah 30:21. "If you wander off the road to the right or the left, you will hear his voice behind you saying, "Here is the road. Follow it.""
Right there and then, I knew that He'd place me back to where it started.

Lord, I have no problem about NOT getting married. You made me here to fulfill a certain mission, and it is certainly a mission greater than getting married. I was a fool for not following my heart, I was wayward for holding "the pen" for my love story.

If she really is from You, help me and give me the chance to make myself worthy of her love.
Make me more like You.
Write my story the way You want it.



...and if you are reading this, I want you to know that I could find a thousand of reasons as to why I like you, like;
1. You look like an angel (never seen any of them, but it's normal if I like you better than them =p)
2. You smile like a bunny.
3. We like too many of the same songs. We sang together in traffic jams.
4. You made me love myself more, that it's okay being me.
5. We are cholerics !
6. You are the first to actually succeed to calm me down when I was... being choleric.
7. You told me not to worry about life...

...I'm sure I can find the other 993, but the biggest reason of them all, is that you bring me closer and closer to Him. I sure hope I'm doing the same to you.

When the time is right, I will pop the question. Be honest. I can take rejections. Don't put yourself in a position where you would be unhappy. It's the last thing I want you to feel.

Until then, I will always pray for you, day and night. And I still want to know you better. =)